"Forgotten"

Just something written two months ago that I've been meaning to put up, it has just been getting pushed back. I look back at when I wrote this, not that long ago, and I am surprised at how much my life has changed, the way I see things has changed. Bottom line is the fact that now I can smile. All the bad in my past has now been forgotten, and it's how I want it to be.

Wish I could take back
Some things I have done
Flip over the hourglass
And restart my life run

I was always told
I control my own life
It is what helped me
Put down the sharp knife

Days I couldn't breath
Would cut off my own air
They said I'd hurt myself
But I really didn't care

There are some scars
That I can never erase
They said it'd get better
It came at a slow pace

Don't know why I did it
Problems weren't fixed
Guess the pain and pleasure
Just loved to get mixed

I'm glad I can now say
That it is all in my past
At the time I thought
My misery would end fast

Some situations were bad
Kept me from seeing clear
But now I'm built strong
I rarely shed a tear

Growing up in life
With ideas of suicide
Caused me to drink 
To be unhappy and hide

Those couple of years
I wish I could trade
For something that
Did not end in a blade

My life has improved
No tears, just a smile
I have not felt this good
In quite a long while

"Created A Monster"

Simply was inspired by the classic horror monster that started the whole genre. They may not be taken seriously now, but these monsters sometimes carried characteristics of love, but also of terror and held no pity. Love is like a horror movie sometimes, I hope anyone who views it in this way will make it out alive. Maybe make it to the sequel lol!

Just like in the movies
I am always in danger
Guess that's what happens
When you love a stranger

Got my very own zombie
Get no emotions for you
The words that you speak
Are just no longer true

Have a love for vampires
You make my heart stop
You have me with your gaze
Drink up my very last drop

As if it's because of the moon
You change from night to day
You want to go run around
Can never get you to stay

You were once something human 
You are now just see through
Haunting my house and dreams
A ghost that I once knew

Keep running through the woods
Always end up in the same spot
I find your past victims
You have just left to rot

You are nothing but a cannibal
Tearing away at the flesh
Pack the pieces away so
They can stay nice and fresh

I feel that I created you
Responsible for the monster 
The villain in my life 
Is nothing but an imposter

I see now the true evil
That lurks behind the eyes
You rip off my skin
To wear as a disguise 

I can only hear you laugh
When I am in the dark alone
Haunting my every dream
Has me scared to the bone

"In Love With A Killer"

The title of this poem kind of shows my inspiration for the project. Jeffree Star, queen of the Internet, recently released a song of the same name and I found it amazing and just triggered my creative juices. Didn't want to "borrow" the title but I just think it fits in perfectly and captures what I wanted to do with the poem. The poem is dark, I'm not at a dark point in my life, but I was having fun with it and was taking aspects of my life that I have lived through. Hope you like this piece and I have to thank Jeffree for being such an inspiration, can't wait to hear the next album.

Just discovered that 
I am in love with a killer
Feels like I'm in a movie
Or MJ's epic "Thriller"

It's shocking to see that
My pain brought you pleasure
You have caused me harm
That only scars can measure

Your smile is a drug that
Knocks me off my feet
You are licking you lips
Because I taste so sweet

You had your eyes on me
Followed my every move
Held a knife to my throat
Said I had a love to prove

The kindness that you show
Is just a psychotic trick
You speak nothing but lies
That get me deathly sick

Your hands are dripping blood
From the wounds you've made
You see me crying in pain
You won't put down the blade

Even though you're with me
You look for others to kill
You try not to be seen
In the shadows you stand still 

Guess I love the danger
Cuz I can't seem to leave you
You enjoy torturing me
Kissing my lips when blue

Seems like when I'm with you
Everything tends to go dark
The venom that you produce
Has already left its mark

I'm not the first on your list
And I doubt I'll be the last
I wonder where you hide
The bodies of your lovers past

I will do the best I can
To never tell you goodbye
I want to love you forever
Even if you're the reason I die

"Party Nation"

It's Friday, beginning of the weekend and I think everyone just needs to let loose, relax, have fun, and just dance! School is taking its toll towards the end of the semester and I just want to have a good time, there's nothing wrong with that. So put the book down, get your best outfit, rub some glitter and grease around and get your ass on the dancefloor! But remember.... Be careful!

Spending hours wondering
Where the party is at
A great night is in store 
I can promise you that

Raise your hands in the air
If you are part of party nation
If it is your goal to drink
And get into a crazy situation

Your head starts spinning
Till you can't stand anymore
Your staying till dawn comes
So get on the dancefloor

Body dripping with sweat
Rock it along with the beat
Your shirt comes off
Slowly turning up the heat

You are one with the night
The energy is getting high
The club is coming alive 
Party as if you're gonna die

The music is blasting loud
Don't act like you can't feel it
People are going all out
Join them for a little bit

Celebrate sex and youth
Start jumping up and down
Have everyone at your feet
As if you run the town

The crowd starts jumping
Give yourself some space
Dance up on the stage 
As if you own the place

The lights are electric
The spotlight of the night
They are only dimmed
When people party right 

Touch yourself for all to see
Dance without a single care
Take a few more shots
Tap the glasses in the air

Looking at the party nation
Act like the king or queen
Your throne is at DJ's booth
Go and view this club scene

"Stressed Out"

These next few weeks of school will be very stressful indeed. Have a lot due and important exams coming up, hope I can get through it all. No matter how hard your days might get, just know that they will be over very soon. Be strong!

Trying to get through it all
Keep my head held high
Just want it to end
For this day to pass by

Life is not always good
Feeling a bit stressed out
So much on my mind
I need to worry about

Always lift myself up
To hit the bottom hard
I just want to give up
I have played my last card

What I have worked for
Is going down the drain
All my hopes and dreams
Washed away by the rain

Try not to show tears
So I just fake a smile
Sometimes I want to hide
Be alone for a while

Thought I was smart enough
To handle it all
Thought I was strong
But I ran into a wall

I just cannot seem to
Get back on my feet
I hate to say it
But I have been beat

I give it all I have
Get nothing in return
Never giving up is 
A lesson I didn't learn

Recently it seems like
I do nothing but fail
Steel bars holding me back
As if I were in jail

Just need to clear my mind
Cannot let stress win
Breathe and start over
A new day will begin