"What is Love?"

Love is a word that many do not know the meaning to, I can put myself in that group unfortunately. I wear the scars that the ones I have "loved" have left me. Whether they be boyfriends, family or friends, I have been hurt countless times and I have come to a point where I feel better and happier just being alone. When I start showing someone that I do care for them everything seems to coming crashing down right on top of me and it takes me a very long time to get back up on my own two feet. I put up a wall for a reason, and when I do let it come down a little I am always the one getting hurt or left behind, I guess it is just my luck. I am not saying that I will never tell someone that I love them or want to be with one person for the rest of my life, but it does take some time on my part. I do not like playing the victim, but I feel that I am always being cast in that role and it sucks more than anything else.

I do not look that much
I am afraid I won't find
The one that is right for me
Scared to be left behind

The feelings that appear
Always seem too strange
The status of relationship
Won't be so easy to change

I guess I am doing it wrong
Can somebody show me how
To be happy and to smile
Can I be in love right now

Many don't know the meaning
It is a word many can't say
Everyone should be loved
Whether they be straight or gay

The emotion is a question
That some consider hard
People shut everyone out
Can't let down their guard

A bond can become strong
Just handle it with care
But most give up too soon
Throw their hands in the air

I viewed love as a myth
Still don't fully understand
Try to learn as it grows
When I grab someone's hand

Love spreads around like fire
I never wanted to get burned
The lesson of a beating heart
Is one that I never learned

I was always scared to share
I always hid behind a wall
Little by little I chip away
It will soon begin to fall

I want to know what love is
Don't think anyone knows
Just give it a fighting chance
See where it actually goes

Not everything is positive
I am not writing a love song
I try to keep my head up
But I've just waited so long

I cannot help myself but
I always seem bored on a date
Sparks just do not happen
Guess it is just my fate

My heart just kept breaking
Took forever for it to mend
I've never experienced love
So is it all just pretend?

"Unmasked"

Sometimes the ones that can cause the most damage in your life are the ones that you cherish and hold close to your heart. Friends are an important part of anyone's life, but those relationships go sour sometimes and it never turns out right. It is a sad thing to experience, one that many go through, but don't let anyone ruin your life. Cut those ties if they are bringing you down or not treating you the way they should. Bottom line is.... Fuck them! You can always find new friends because sooner or later a friend with a grudge will be the one stabbing a knife right in your spine, twisting it ever so gently!

Trusted you too soon
Brought you into my life
Running down the street
In my back lies a knife

Following my every step
You simply have to walk
You come to slit my throat
You don't want me to talk

Did not suspect you at all
Couldn't have committed crime
Bodies falling all around
It was you this entire time

The smile across your face
As you tease with the blade
Step back to enjoy all
Of the cuts you have made

I try to fight you back
You throw me down the stairs
I let out a loud scream
It gets lost in the empty airs

You step on my right leg
Till you hear bones crack 
I try to crawl away in pain
You watch then pull me back

I cannot go to sleep at night
You haunt my every dream
Thought you were good
Things aren't how they seem

You throw me around the room
Slam me against the wall
Pretended to actually like me
You just wanted to see me fall

Taking everything from me
All the ones that I love
Trying to take my place
I was the one always above

Remove the mask you wear
Before I come to my end
How could you do this
Thought you were a friend

"Story Book Love"

A soppy poem describing feelings that are somewhat new to me. Took me a while to fully grab the concept of a few words, but I think I can say that I understand them now. I'm happy, I'm smiling and that doesn't happen very often!


I may not believe in love
That I need a happy ending 
But the feelings I have for you
Are real, I'm not pretending

I was always lost in the dark
But you showed me the way
Your smile gives me the power
To get through my tough day

I do not believe in magic
Faith had nothing to do with this
We just like each other
You had me with your kiss

Witchcraft is just a myth
But I may be under a spell
If I could have you forever
Is something only time can tell

I was falling down a hole
You were there to catch me
Rubbed your hand in my hair
By my side is where you'll be

These feelings are something new
Never felt like this before
I don't know what I'm under
I do know that I want more 

Your eyes just sparkle
As if I am in a dream 
I'll do my best to make sure
We don't tear at the seam

Don't believe in fairytales
But you are the prince
Love had failed me once 
I've had problems ever since

You waited patiently for me
To get over my dark past
You took me to a far place
Where only happiness can last

My eyes are now closed
I open them, you're still here
Know that you've rescued me
I have nothing else to fear