"15 Minutes Of Fame"

I love seeing how some celebrities are famous one day and then the next they go out and completely ruin everything that they worked for. I'm not saying they are entirely to blame, the media is a reason for their downfall, and it makes me sad that our society enjoys watching it. I don't think I would ever wish to be famous, I would like to be someone behind the scenes: a songwriter, a producer, a journalist, not a celebrity. The saying goes that you really only have fifteen minutes of fame and fortune. This is true for most out there now, but there are the few that extend those few minutes into a lifetime and I applaud them for it. This piece is looking at the dark, horrible side of fame, I'm not saying that there isn't a great and fabulous side. Hope you enjoy!

Cameras are flashing
Lights are blinding me
Trying to run and hide
Somewhere they cannot see

It is difficult to adjust to
What comes with fame
Wish I could go back
Make everything the same

Your private life is
Shown on the tv screen
It shocks me to know
People can be so mean

Succeeding in this world
Always comes with a price
Most only care about money
They just pretend to be nice

They would quickly let you
Drown in your own blood
They can't wait to drag
Your career through the mud

Fifteen positive minutes
Is all that you get
So hurry, make it last
The timer has been set

You are only relevant
If you make the headlines
You are wasting away
They already see the signs

You get the most attention
Once you are dead
They only care about the bad
Never the good life you led

Being famous is a wish
Most cannot handle
You're easy to get rid of
Like the flame of a candle

A piece of advice
Careful what you wish for
People ruined their lives
Because they craved more

"Strangers"

I want the best for you
Don't wanna give you danger
I feel right now you are
In love with a stranger

Feelings running through
I just needed more time 
I did not want to rush
Something in its prime

I wanted to be sure
What we had was strong
Did not want to say I cared
And then prove you wrong

My past has been darkened
But that is no excuse
To treat everyone the same
As if they caused me abuse

I wanna get to know you
Want you to love me
We move at different paces
That's not how it should be 

I guess you don't realize
What you have till it's gone
But if you feel we can't be
Then we must move on

I didn't want this to happen
I was afraid for this day
Losing all that is good
Is a price I have to pay

Maybe we moved too fast
Hardly knew each other
Maybe some more time 
Would be best for one another

At this point in my life
To you I would not be fair
I just want you to know
That I honestly did care

Everything about you and me
Was good, wanted it to last
Hopefully this little break
Won't put it all in the past

"A Man Above God"

This piece mixes elements of religion and love, but also aspects that are complete opposites of each other. These last few weeks have put a toll on me but I am glad that they happened because they allowed my true feelings to come through. Comparing a man to Jesus is a huge compliment and I hope they see that whether they be religious or not, because I am not. This poem is really special to me, and I feel that my creativity is growing day by day. This person holds a large piece of my heart and it is up to them to decide whether they want to keep it or destroy it. This man may not be a god but he is close to one. I hope anyone who reads this sees the emotion that I put into it, I enjoy it and consider it one of my favorites.

This man whose soul I see 
Was perfection when born 
He differs from Jesus 
His head bares no thorn

He heals all my wounds 
And wipes away my tears
He brings light to my life
And erases all my fears

When people throw him stones
He throws them right back
Within his mind and body
Strength he does not lack

As I lay to sleep at night 
It is him I see in my dream
If a nightmare I am having
He wakes me before I scream

He has fixed my broken life 
Led me down the right road
He wraps his arms around me
When my body grows cold

He may speak to someone else
I know he really loves me
His beauty and his powers
Allowed me to finally see

He carries a burden of weight
I wish to relieve him of pain
I will not let him be harmed
The ground his blood won't stain

He is special and unique
A gift from the sky above
This man better than any other
Is the one I've come to love

If people are to judge him
For the life that he lives
He takes in all their hatred
Happiness is all that he gives

This man may not be a God
He has set himself apart
If his death were to come
He has me, an extra heart

"It's Always Been You"

I think I posted this poem a little too late which increases the feelings I had when I wrote it even more. For the first time in a while I was actually happy. Happiness does not come into my life very often and easily, but I knew it was in my life because of one person. This person made me smile and laugh and I was developing feelings for them, I guess my feelings came a little too late though. This poem carries a happy but sad message at the same time because when I read it I feel that I have lost something that I should have held on to. I cannot change the way someone feels about me, but I do wish I could go back and do a lot of things differently. This person is special and I hope they realize that they deserve so much, they are just truly amazing! I may not have them by my side but I still wish them all the happiness in the world. As I am writing this, I have tears rolling down my cheeks, I guess I'm not as heartless as some people thought I was. Maybe things will work out later, but right now I have to respect their wishes. Note to self: don't let the wall you put up ruin good things coming your way.

It is in your hand
Where mine does belong
You are the one who
Makes me feel strong

When I am close to you
I feel nothing but warm 
With you by my side 
I can brave any storm

When I look at you
I cannot help but smile
When I need to talk it's 
Your number I always dial

You are nothing but sweet
May be bad for my teeth
You lifted me off the ground
When I was falling beneath

I get put on a high
Whenever I hear your voice
I'd keep you in my life
If I was given a choice

When you touch my skin
My legs want to give out
At first I was not so sure
Now I don't have one doubt

You brought light to my life
I was running in the dark
You have got me addicted
You have already left a mark

There is something about you
That certain special quality
You do not fake anything
You actually care for me

I have come to realize
My feelings for you are true
Whether rain, sleet or snow
I will not stop loving you

I have never felt like this
Everything is a little strange
But with you by my side
I can accept this change

"Backstabber"

This poem and the last one posted really go hand in hand so I am not going to say anything more about them, they speak for themselves :)

An ungrateful backstabber
Is what I see in you 
You pretend to be innocent
When that's far from true

Ignore me all the time
For help is when you call
I'm walking away from you
I don't care at all

You only used me
To get what you want
Wrong person to mess with
Your dreams I'll now haunt

You are pathetic
Your life means nothing
Now you will get to see
What your lies will bring

I did nothing to you
Was nothing but nice
Being on my bad side
Comes with a hefty price 

I let you into my life
Faster than anyone before
I have to cut the ties
I can't take it anymore

You spread nothing but hate
Whenever I am not there
All I see is a fake person
I can no longer bare

Don't know how it got
To this awful place
Glad I saw the real you
You lied right in my face

Trusted you too much
That was my mistake
It was a dumb decision
I will never again make

Just turn around and walk
Down your road of shame
Seems I've been played enough
I just lost this game

"Done With You"

Sometimes in life you end up in friendships that do not turn out too well. Either you or the other person involved do something that completely ruins any type of relationship that was present. I am very blunt, it is how I live, but friendships are something in my life that I truly treasure, however; I am not going to associate myself with someone that enjoys hurting me. Recently I have seen another side of a "friend" that really set me back. They accused me of things that I had nothing to do with, I think they were just trying to find a way to get rid of me. Instead of talking about me behind my back, I would rather they come straight to me, but they are scared to even do that. This person is hiding something that they don't want anyone to find out and I guess they feel they have to take out their frustration out on me. They aren't happy with themselves, I don't think they will ever be. I tried my best to help and be nice but now I don't really care what is going on in their lives. I may sound heartless at the moment but I was not the one that started this. Anger is present within me now and it is their fault, not mine. Things may work out and our friendship may go back to how it was, but right now it feels awkward and broken. 

Go on and spread
All of your lies
Try to hide the truth
I see it in your eyes

After all of this
You still wanna be friends
Sorry, that option is gone
This is where it ends

I cannot associate 
With someone like you
Placing all the blame on me
When we know it isn't true

I wish you the best
But stay out of my sight 
You say I won't hurt you
But I think I just might

Thought you were cool
Thought we were the same
But now I cannot stand you
Don't wanna hear your name

So just put your head down
I hope you feel some guilt
You destroyed all of it,
The friendship that we built

The time we spent together
You just wasted space
I can quickly find someone
To step into your place

Things between us
Will never be good
If I could fix it all
I don't think I would

You were not the person
That you claimed to be 
Glad you decided to leave
You did a favor for me

I don't surround myself
With what I consider trash
I have no respect for you
You are gone in a flash

"At Your Service"

This piece really speaks for itself and I should just say I was in a state of mind where my fantasies where overpowering reality. As I have said before, sex between you and your partner is nothing to be ashamed about. I write these sorts of poems for fun, some may actually come true. Hope you enjoy! 

Enjoy the sound of
Leather hitting skin
You entered a sex game
You can never win

Strip yourself down
I'll bind you with chains
I'll have you liking all
The pleasures and pains

Bite your neck so hard
Be sure to leave my mark
Put on your blindfold
Leave you in the dark

Smile, you're on camera
Filming from the start
When it is all over
Rewind to the best part

You better do what I say
Know that I'm your boss
If you cannot last long
Then that is your loss

Tie your hands with rope 
Scream into the pillow
I have complete control
I'll tell you when to blow

Slap you around a bit
If you decide not to obey
Step out of line and 
I'll be sure to make you pay

I will pull your head back
As I work to make you sore
No one will ever know what
Happens behind a closed door

I won't stop what I'm doing
Till you can't go anymore
We will move from the bed
And end up on the floor

What ever you can dream of
I'll make sure it comes true
Your fantasies are not weird
I'm just here to service you

"Sorry For It All"

There is not really much to say about this new piece. It basically goes hand in hand with the poem that I posted yesterday. "All My Fault" and "Sorry For It All" are two pieces that express how I am truly feeling and I hope the person that they are for understands this. Both these poems were written when I was in a very emotional state of mind, so I hope the meaning stands strong.

I don't know what to do
Sad to say, I am lost
I would take it all back
No matter what the cost

I made a mistake
I didn't want to let go 
Wanted to make you mine
Guess I was too slow

I saw our relationship
Play out like a movie
It was not that good cuz
It was directed by me

You made me feel things
I had never felt before 
It just makes me sad cuz 
There won't be anymore

I look to my side
You are no longer there
I guess I am to blame
To you, I was not fair

I did not allow me and you
To reach out full potential
You were perfect to me
Met my every credential 

Realizing what I gave up
Has caused my heart to rip
Just want to shoot myself 
No more ammo in the clip

You deserve the best
I couldn't give that to you
Don't have many friends
You are one of the few

I hope you know what I felt
Can only be considered real
Maybe I can get over this 
It will take time to heal

Wishing for the chance
To make this all right 
Cuz at this point in time
My day has turned to night

"All My Fault"

I have only had one real relationship in my past and it did not turn out the way that I wish it had. The time that I called someone mine was honestly some of the worst times in my life. I was young, naive, and did not really understand what love really felt like. Fast forward a couple of years and I seem to treat everyone that shows a liking to me the wrong way which is something that I don't mean to do. I guess I hold a wall up for reasons, but I think that I need to. At this point in my life I feel it would be unfair to the other person in my relationship because I feel I couldn't show them exactly how I felt in this chaotic thing that I call my life. I have come across amazing people, but recently ruined something that was nothing but good. It hurts to know that I ruined something that actually made me smile, but I think I just needed more time to really figure things out. This person is truly amazing and I am really sorry that I made them wait, I have no business telling them to wait. I may not be the best at showing how I really feel, but I swear that I do try the best that I can. Maybe my best just is not enough. I enjoyed every second that I spent with this person, they helped me through tough times and I can never thank them enough for that. I hold all the fault and I just wish the best for them because they truly deserve nothing but great things. 

Didn't understand the bond
It is too late, you're gone
I'm sorry for what I've done
I shouldn't have led you on

I couldn't show you my love 
I always filled up with fear
But now I realize that
I wish I had you here

Even though I put up a wall
I wish you would tear it down
You always made me smile
When my face showed a frown

I would give all I have
To go back to the start
Show you from the beginning
Is when you had my heart

I have no business
Asking for you to wait
It is not you, but myself
Who I should truly hate

All the good times we had
I swear I'll never forget
Not making you mine
Is a decision I will regret

It hurts to know I did wrong
I just want to sit and cry
No one to blame but me
I just want to run and die

I enjoyed holding your hand
I just didn't hold on tight
Walking alone in the dark
Won't make me feel alright

You are truly the best
I am glad that I met you
I'm stupid for doing this
We both know it's true

I hope nothing changes
I hope it stays the same
Because I know I'll be happy
When I hear your name

"Diablo"

Some people are very dominate in their relationships, and there is nothing wrong with that, but there are a few that take it a bit too far. I have met a couple of people who go through relationships like they go through shirts. They take what they want from one person and then move right on to the next one that they can find. Being the aggressive one in a relationship could be viewed as a bad quality, but there is some good that can come out of it as well. Instead of letting someone treat you horribly, you are able to take control of how situations will play out, I think everyone would like to have the upper hand. This poem was inspired by the maneaters out there, but showing them in a positive light by getting rid of the one that has done them wrong. I am a strong person and don't take any crap in my relationships, I will fight back, but I don't think I would ever kill anyone, it is just an analogy. The bottom line is the fact that everyone needs to be strong when they enter a relationship. If you feel that you are in a troubled relationship then you must always stand on your own two feet, never let anyone put you down. This piece has a dark and sadistic tone to it, but I think that it carries a powerful meaning. It is just for fun, don't take it too seriously!

I will drink your blood
Let some pour out
I'll give you something
To be scared about

Fear as you watch
My fangs grow longer
Think you can escape me
I'll show you who's stronger

Rip your heart out
And take one big bite
The organs taste better
Once they're filled with fright

The dishonest liars
Always make a good lunch
I liked the taste of your meat
There just wasn't much

I will snap your neck
Hear every bone crack
Lie to me once I promise
You will never come back

Eat as much as I can
Till I get tired of you
Gotta start digging in
It's gross when you turn blue

I could cook your insides
But I prefer them raw
I don't think killing assholes
Is really against the law

After I get bored and full
I've dug your own grave
Slitting your throat was
The only way you'd behave

Slice you into pieces
They all turn to dust
Your fake mechanical smile
Will slowly turn to rust

If they try me for murder
I swear I won't confess
I won't point them to the body
I got rid of the mess

"Time Stands Still"

To handle all the negativity that surrounds me at certain time in my life, I developed a passion for poetry as you all have noticed already. My poems may not be the best, but I enjoy what I do and nothing will keep me from writing. This piece was written when I was at the lowest point that I possibly could be. Nothing was going right, and I just had a day that I would consider one of the worst of my life, but I made it through and put it all behind me. At times I feel that I am walking slower in time and everyone else is just rushing past me at a hundred miles per hour. I try to get people to stop and listen to me, but they never seem like they want to, they just continue on and ignore me. People always try to knock me down, make me feel like I am nothing, but they cannot keep my spirits down for long because I am stronger than what they think. I may have my moments of vulnerability, that is how these poems come to be, but those moments do not last for very long. I may shed a tear once in a while, but not many people will see them because I do not want anyone to see that side of me. I feel that tears are a sense of weakness, and when people see them once they will continue to make you feel the same horrible way. I bottle everything up, everything that is bothering me, and wait till I am alone to let it all out. I have my own ways with dealing with my sadness and no one should tell me how to deal with the things going on in my life.

Everything passing by me
In the speed of light
Feelings like I stay put
Throughout the day and night

Everyone wears a smile
I just put my head down
I do all I can to stop it
My face still makes a frown

I just keep on walking
No one see my pain
No one stops to help
When I've fallen in the rain

My tears pour down
I quickly wipe them away
My life is stuck on pause
Want someone to hit play

I pretend not to hurt
Act like I really don't care
Truth is, everyday I'm here
Is too much to bare

The weight knocks me down
To my knees on the floor
I try to hold it all in
But I can't take anymore

I try to hide the sadness
But my eyes can't lie
I sit in silence, alone
Watching time fly by

Always think to myself
I don't want to be here
Nothing seems to go right
Happiness is not so near

I use to stand strong
It's all be taken from me
I'm slipping into depression
A place I don't want to be

When everything around me
Is getting cold as ice
I contemplate making my life
The ultimate sacrifice

"Put On A Show"

Before I begin introducing this next project, I am just going to say up front that this next piece is all about sex haha! There is nothing wrong with sharing a passionate moment with someone else, as long as it is good. People always feel weird talking about sex, but I am totally comfortable talking about the subject because I find nothing wrong with it. This poem is just my weird and perverted mind running wild, and I guess my dreams spilled on to the paper which created this piece. I think it is fun and scandalous, there is nothing wrong with combining the two. Sex is something that should not be viewed in a negative way like it has been. If two people want to get together for the rest of their lives, or just one night, then they have every right to experience an amazing feeling with each other. Everyone dreams of having sex they just won't admit it so I am writing this to get people to understand that sex is a natural, great experience. I may not be an expert in this subject, but I do know that I am not afraid to talk about it, neither should anyone else. I hope no one gets offended my this piece, but will simply view it as a regular, sexualized pop song. If no one has a problem with those, then they should not have a problem with this. Have fun everyone! Express your love in a beautiful way.... Ok I am going to stop now before this gets cheesy lol!

Shut your mouth
No need to talk here
Turn the lights off
You got nothing to fear

Let me warm you up
If you get a little cold
Pull out your weapon
I'll make that gun explode

Handcuff you to the bed
Throw away the key
I see what I want
And it is all for me

Set up the camera
Gonna put on a show
Gonna put you to the test
See how long you can go

Gonna turn up the heat
Melt the candles to wax
Won't stop working
Till we both hit climax

Was a perfect angel
You clipped off my wings
You force me to be bad
Made me do dirty things

I will undress for you
Give you a little dance
I am everything you want
Don't pass up your chance

I can be a good sport
So give me all you got
Let me see how you work
See if you hit the right spot

Hope you wear me out
When you take me on the floor
Keep giving it your all
Even if I can't go anymore

Finish our play date
Lay exhausted side by side
Touching each other will
Lead quickly to another ride