"Forgotten"

Just something written two months ago that I've been meaning to put up, it has just been getting pushed back. I look back at when I wrote this, not that long ago, and I am surprised at how much my life has changed, the way I see things has changed. Bottom line is the fact that now I can smile. All the bad in my past has now been forgotten, and it's how I want it to be.

Wish I could take back
Some things I have done
Flip over the hourglass
And restart my life run

I was always told
I control my own life
It is what helped me
Put down the sharp knife

Days I couldn't breath
Would cut off my own air
They said I'd hurt myself
But I really didn't care

There are some scars
That I can never erase
They said it'd get better
It came at a slow pace

Don't know why I did it
Problems weren't fixed
Guess the pain and pleasure
Just loved to get mixed

I'm glad I can now say
That it is all in my past
At the time I thought
My misery would end fast

Some situations were bad
Kept me from seeing clear
But now I'm built strong
I rarely shed a tear

Growing up in life
With ideas of suicide
Caused me to drink 
To be unhappy and hide

Those couple of years
I wish I could trade
For something that
Did not end in a blade

My life has improved
No tears, just a smile
I have not felt this good
In quite a long while