Love is a word that many do not know the meaning to, I can put myself in that group unfortunately. I wear the scars that the ones I have "loved" have left me. Whether they be boyfriends, family or friends, I have been hurt countless times and I have come to a point where I feel better and happier just being alone. When I start showing someone that I do care for them everything seems to coming crashing down right on top of me and it takes me a very long time to get back up on my own two feet. I put up a wall for a reason, and when I do let it come down a little I am always the one getting hurt or left behind, I guess it is just my luck. I am not saying that I will never tell someone that I love them or want to be with one person for the rest of my life, but it does take some time on my part. I do not like playing the victim, but I feel that I am always being cast in that role and it sucks more than anything else.
I do not look that much
I am afraid I won't find
The one that is right for me
Scared to be left behind
The feelings that appear
Always seem too strange
The status of relationship
Won't be so easy to change
I guess I am doing it wrong
Can somebody show me how
To be happy and to smile
Can I be in love right now
Many don't know the meaning
It is a word many can't say
Everyone should be loved
Whether they be straight or gay
The emotion is a question
That some consider hard
People shut everyone out
Can't let down their guard
A bond can become strong
Just handle it with care
But most give up too soon
Throw their hands in the air
I viewed love as a myth
Still don't fully understand
Try to learn as it grows
When I grab someone's hand
Love spreads around like fire
I never wanted to get burned
The lesson of a beating heart
Is one that I never learned
I was always scared to share
I always hid behind a wall
Little by little I chip away
It will soon begin to fall
I want to know what love is
Don't think anyone knows
Just give it a fighting chance
See where it actually goes
Not everything is positive
I am not writing a love song
I try to keep my head up
But I've just waited so long
I cannot help myself but
I always seem bored on a date
Sparks just do not happen
Guess it is just my fate
My heart just kept breaking
Took forever for it to mend
I've never experienced love
So is it all just pretend?
You're not doing it wrong
ReplyDeleteThat's the funny thing, Luis
You did it just right
It's just a formality
Love always is a gamble
True that and such might
Love is just like a candle
When lit, it burns bright
The passion once felt
was more than a simple crush
It was caring, mixed with emotion
mixed with fear and the such
But more so it was happiness
It was friendship even lust
It was knowing I could always
Feel as though u cared so much
It was ended and shoved
In a corner of the mind
It was forgotten and above
All else a figment of time
Letting your fence down
Exposing to the world so
Is something that was hard for you
And it was evident in your glow
From the burning, burning bright
Of your candle sticks might
May one day you find love
May your love burn bright
I never forget
I never dissapear
Albeit I feel stupid sometimes,
But I know in my mind what's clear
I wish you the best.
I miss you again and again
In my eyes and my spirit
Youll always be my friend