"Time Stands Still"

To handle all the negativity that surrounds me at certain time in my life, I developed a passion for poetry as you all have noticed already. My poems may not be the best, but I enjoy what I do and nothing will keep me from writing. This piece was written when I was at the lowest point that I possibly could be. Nothing was going right, and I just had a day that I would consider one of the worst of my life, but I made it through and put it all behind me. At times I feel that I am walking slower in time and everyone else is just rushing past me at a hundred miles per hour. I try to get people to stop and listen to me, but they never seem like they want to, they just continue on and ignore me. People always try to knock me down, make me feel like I am nothing, but they cannot keep my spirits down for long because I am stronger than what they think. I may have my moments of vulnerability, that is how these poems come to be, but those moments do not last for very long. I may shed a tear once in a while, but not many people will see them because I do not want anyone to see that side of me. I feel that tears are a sense of weakness, and when people see them once they will continue to make you feel the same horrible way. I bottle everything up, everything that is bothering me, and wait till I am alone to let it all out. I have my own ways with dealing with my sadness and no one should tell me how to deal with the things going on in my life.

Everything passing by me
In the speed of light
Feelings like I stay put
Throughout the day and night

Everyone wears a smile
I just put my head down
I do all I can to stop it
My face still makes a frown

I just keep on walking
No one see my pain
No one stops to help
When I've fallen in the rain

My tears pour down
I quickly wipe them away
My life is stuck on pause
Want someone to hit play

I pretend not to hurt
Act like I really don't care
Truth is, everyday I'm here
Is too much to bare

The weight knocks me down
To my knees on the floor
I try to hold it all in
But I can't take anymore

I try to hide the sadness
But my eyes can't lie
I sit in silence, alone
Watching time fly by

Always think to myself
I don't want to be here
Nothing seems to go right
Happiness is not so near

I use to stand strong
It's all be taken from me
I'm slipping into depression
A place I don't want to be

When everything around me
Is getting cold as ice
I contemplate making my life
The ultimate sacrifice