"Homicidal Affair Pt. 1"

This piece is my pride and joy, for the moment, because it is something dark and twisted, kind of like me according to others. The meaning behind this poem is how someone can hold on to a love that is so harmful to them that it's basically killing them. I have seen many of my friends get into relationships that were not good for them since the beginning, but they never listened to my advice and got hurt by the one they claimed to love. I have also been in bad relationships with people that felt like they owed me, they tried controlling me and I was dumb enough to stay by their side when it was not the best thing for me to do. With this disgusting poem I felt creativity flow through me in large amounts. This poem took so much of my time, I kept adding and adding to it, that it basically became a poem three times longer than anything I have ever written before. It is only fair that each piece gets its own chance to shine, so my next three entries will be the same piece in three different parts. I just want everyone to know that love is not suppose to be filled with hatred. If the one that you are with does not treat you like the gem you really are then you have no business being with them. Do not let a relationship ruin you! My best wished to you all!

I feel chained to the spot
All you do is punish me
You gouge my eyes out
Lies you don't want me to see

You have wrecked me up
Broke my every bone
To call for some help
You make me beg and moan

I start to hallucinate
Making me go insane
You have dug my grave
Buried me out in the rain

I try to crawl away
But you drag me back
Nails digging into the boards
Throw my body in a sack

I do not feel the love
I feel pleasure and pain
Misery followed you in
Fear invaded my brain

Your hurtful remarks
Like pins piercing my skin
I am infected with disease
How did I let you win

You like the feel of control
Place a leash round my neck
I am bloody and bruised 
A victim of a car wreck

Tear down my spirit
Drag a knife across my arm
I only see you smile 
When you're causing me harm

You like to build me up
Just to watch me fall
Chop me up into pieces
And hide them in the wall

I'm in love with a killer
But I cannot leave you
Seems like your plan worked
Just like you wanted it to

You blind and gag me
So I cannot say one word
The lines of real and fake
Have all become blurred