Thursday, February 3, 2011

"Want What I Can't Have"

The one thing that everyone looks for in their live is, in my opinion....... LOVE! Going through my high school years I thought I was in love with someone that I have had in my life for quite some time. I thought I was in love with my best friend which I am sure many other people have gone through. My best friend was always there for me, always looking out for me and for those reasons it just felt right that I grew an attraction towards them. As I have gotten into college I have had a discussion with this friend, almost ruined everything, and I have come to accept that I would rather be friends than nothing at all. This person is amazing in every way, and they will always have a place in my heart whether they be just a friend or something more. This piece is inspired by them, I have never let them read it, if they do now, don't take offense!

Want What I Can't Have

When I'm with you
I put on the biggest smile
We are friends now
But I can wait a while

To call you mine
Is all I can think of
It breaks my heart
To see you can't show love

You have helped me 
Through all of my pain
But you make me feel
Like I am going insane

My knees buckle
Whenever you touch me
I keep hoping for something
We will never be

When I look in your eyes
I hope something is there
It kills me to not have you
It just isn't fair

Sometimes I wonder
If I should let you fall
But a friendship is better
Than nothing at all

I'll just have to realize
This is how it will be
But my love for you
Does not let me see

I will keep pretending
That I don't hurt inside
And live my life
As if I have always lied

If you give me the chance
You will not regret
If I end up leaving
Please do not forget

Just know that I care for you
More than anyone could 
If I could give you it all
I hope you know I would

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