"If I Were To Leave"

This is a piece I wrote a while back, the last poem before I started writing again two years later. It is one of my old favorites, I have about 50 from a few years ago. I wanted to share because I wrote it when so much emotion was running through me. I was having a hard time balancing my life and a relationship, and at times I felt like I could not do it anymore. Everyone finds the person they know is the one for them, they would do anything to make them happy, but what if you couldn't anymore. I was afraid that I would die too soon and leave the person that I thought at the time was "the one". My perfect ending did not happen and I moved on, but I think this poem still carries the same meaning as when I wrote it, just not for the same person. True love does exist and if it is right, nothing will break it up, not even death. I also wanted to post this piece because it shows how my writing has developed and grown, I hope for the better. I look back at all my old writing, some I will share in the future, and I just smile because I basically have my whole life written down. It may not all be good times but I see the strength that I carried. This poem was written with nothing but love, that love disappeared, but I know most of you are with the person you want to spend the rest of your lives with and I just want to wish you all the best of luck. Love conquers all!

If I were to leave
Would you forgive me
If I was taken from you
Would you live in misery

It is out of my hands
Not even you can save me
It's okay, don't be sad
It's how it is meant to be

You are all I live for
Nothing can break us apart
If I were to die today
Would I still have your heart

I don't want to say goodbye
I hope I never have to
Just know I'll never give up
I will always love you

Will you hold on to me
If I breathe no more
Will you be there to catch me
If I fall to the floor

One day I might disappear
Start to fade away
You might have to let me go
But I still love you anyway

You will always have me
Maybe only in memory
Our story may one day end
It will never become history

I promise to be with you
Even if I'm not around
It would be heartbreaking
If no cure is found

You make me feel alive
Even when I'm sinking lower
Hopefully your love for me
Will make my death come slower

I am apologizing now
If I have to leave
It is not your fault
The blame belongs to me